~wishes~

I was looking through my phone and found this under contacts : dad visit - 919-581-1035
How I WISH I could call that number and schedule an appointment.
And I cant bring myself to ever delete that entry because a part of me still wants to call that number. Shoot, I would settle for a glance through a window at this point.
(big sigh and tears)

Just thought I'd get that out there.
And sometimes I say to myself, April stop. He's gone. But I just cant do that, because to me, he is not gone. And I dont want to believe that he is gone. So I will not stop. Its human nature to feel that way. So for now I will just keep wishing.
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On another note, lets talk about how my baby girl is doing! She is soooo smart. Here she is 10 months and almost 2 weeks and she can say "ma-ma" "da-da" "ba-ba" "pa-pa" "lily" "baby" "bye bye" "hey there" and she can (try) to bark :) its soo cute! She is just growing up way to fast! She is not walking yet, but we are working on it. AND still no teeth- but in time that will happen. Her hair is growning out of c ontrol now, its thick and everywhere! When she gets up in the mornings she looks like she been in a wind storm, its funny.
I cant believe that in a little over a month she will be turning 1! I think back to that monday when I went to the doctor because that crazy rash was driving me crazy, and the doctor says "I am going to see if we can get you a room"- I was like, a room where?- She just smiled and left the room. She came back and said be at the hospital at 1pm. At that moment, I will admit, I was scared to death. But boy I'm glad she is here! I would not trade her for anything in the world.

And now this weekend, it will be busy for and lyla. Saturday is a full day! First on the agenda is the MSA walk here in Greenville. Then there is actually 2 birthday parties we need to attend but I am afraid we can only attend one since they are at the same time.....
But we are so excited that we get to see our friends! We have missed them dearly!

Well its that time again..... a new class. accoutning. need i say more? I was working on my homework last night and it became apparent that I needed my sisters 4 year degree right then...... so we shall see how this whole things goes!