~1st night of lyla in her crib~

well last night we put lyla in her crib at bedtime. needless to say it was a long night for me.
after johnny got done feeding her, he put her down in her crib and after about 2 hours she started crying. i quickly went to her and put her paci back in her mouth and she went back to sleep. a little bit more time goes and she starts up again but she went right back to sleep. by this time i was listening for her in my sleep the whole time and about every 45 mins i would turn on your video monitor just to make sure she was still breathing. so she finally slept wil about 6am and started crying again. so i brought her into the bedroom and she slept in my spot while i got a shower. and the sneaky little things started smiling when i layed her in our bed- she obviously new what she really wanted!
so i will have to say that the whole crib idea worked out just fine. we will see how the rest of the week goes. i am just real scared about it bc so many things could happen.
oh and how about right before i went to sleep a commercial came on that was talking about taking everything out the crib once putting the baby in there bc of the risk of SIDDS. and i was like wow- now i need her to stay in here for sure. however, i know she will be fine especially since i went and spent a pretty penny on a new video monitor (which was actually johnnys idea- that im glad he insisted)

ok so yeah. thats our first night crib story.

now we are continuing putting rice in her bottle for 2 of her feedings daily. next week i think i might put it in every bottle. and then when we run out of rice i think i will go to oatmeal. i have not decided yet what action i would like to take but i am just trying to make sure her little belly gets used to everything. its real important not to overload her with to much BUT consistancy is REAL important

oki doki. now time for some work

easter sunday update

so this weekend was pretty eventful.
saturday me and lacey met my mom in greenville and went shopping. i got some new stuff but didnt have time to find lyla anything :( then me and johnny and lacey and alex went to see water for elephants and it was pretty good! then on sunday we got up and went to church, stopped by my moms and took some pictures (which a few will be posted below) and then got in the car and went to albertson where my family is. i put together dads flower arrangement (shown below) to put on his grave. i think it turned out great.



so then after visting the grave, which by the way i can never stay at long bc it just brings up too many emotions, we went to my grandparents house. almost everyone was there and lyla did a great job! she was sooo tired though, and it was hot so that didnt help. after we left there we went to johnnys parents house and had easter/ FIL bday party.

lyla ate her 8:30 bottle, we went home i bathed her and she went to sleep at about 9:40ish and she didnt wake up until this morning at 7:30! she was a very tired baby!!!
so posted below are a few easter pics for you to enjoy.

tuesday update session~

well its tuesday.
this past weekend was rough. but i made it! of course i still didnt accomplish what i needed to accomplish bc a. i was sort of kinding avoiding it and b. bc of the weather. (that is putting flowers on my dads grave). so i guess that means i have to do it this weekend which is easter, which means the whole family will be there...... so we will see  how that goes.

anywho. it has now been three or four nights since we have given lyla cereal. she now loves it! she drinks it go fast you would think she was starving. and while we are giving it to her at night before we go to bed, she is still waking up at 5am ! however, when she wakes up at 5 i get up and put here back to sleep and she sleeps til around 7- 7:30ish. i do believe she is going thru the "4month wakeful" and yes she is 5 months BUT i think she is now in that stage. so i will just do what i do and it will be fine. other than that she is just growing oh so fast~ her easter pics came in and mom and i went and picked them up friday and i cant stop looking at them. i even have one on my desk and i find myself looking at it through out the day. i just miss not being able to be with her. but i have to work, and i couldnt be a stay at home mom bc i would probably go crazy! but anywho......
well last thursday i went to the eye doctor and my vision has not changed! so wooohoo! however the doc gave me some new contacts bc she didnt have my size in the brand i wear. i tried to wear those things all weekend and just couldnt do it! i felt like i constantly had something in my eyes! and they gave me a headache from he!!- so yeah needless to say i called yesterday and told her those werent going to work! she gave me a new pair and its like a miracle!
so now im so glad i got that fixed bc i dont love wearing my glasses all the time.

anywho. i just wanted to give an update on everything.

later taters
oh just thought id throw in this wedding picture :) bc i love my hubby so so much

cereal trial~

so last night i decided that lyla needed to try some rice cereal. i mixed a teaspoon of rice in a small bowl and put some of her milk in with it. i went over to feed her and the first little bit she was like "yucky!" faced. so i tried again. she then smacked lips a little bit. the next spoon, not so good. she was MAD! she started crying, i guess because she realized she tasted the milk but she couldnt suck on anything!
so i put just a few crumbles in her bottle (yes i know thats a no no- but it wasnt enough to even notice in the bottle!) i just wanted to let her get the taste on her palate. so i guess in the neat future, possibly tonight, i will try it one more time.
she doesnt really need to cereal right now but she is 5 months and i think it would be a good time to slowly but surely start her on new things. BUT im def. not going to rush things.

lyla is just growing way to fast! and she just keeps getting cuter and cuter! :)
also her easter pics showed up on fb! they are priceless!!! cant wait to go pick them up! of course her are the two pictures:

they are a little hard to see because of all the white, but she is a PRINCESS! gregg ward does such an amazing job.

well tomorrow is the day-dads anniversary-  no longer can i avoid it. just praying my heart and my head stay straight. i will just keep saying a prayer and leaning on my wonderful husband to help me get through the days. i believe my sister and i are meeting up to put some new flowers on the grave. so that might be nice to go to the grave as a family. especially since she has moved to ga.

so anyways... i must work now.

traveling days-

well this weekend was busy and LONG-

friday we left to help my sister move to georgia. so we left greenville at 7 stopped and got something to eat and then we were on the way to Ga. when only 45 minutes later we had to stop AGAIN bc someone has to pee.  almost every hour after that we had to stop bc someone had to pee or lyla needed to eat or someone need to stretch their legs. keep in mind, we had 3 cars and a moving truck going down the interstate, so we couldnt go real fast either. well finally at 7 pm on friday evening we made it to our destination. the moving guys got everything inside and then saturday we unpacked and unpacked and unpacked some more. sunday we came back home.

all this time i was so nervous about lyla and going all this distance and her sitting in her carseat too much and all this other stuff when the whole time she did better than anyone else!!! i was so proud of her! however, by sunday she was def. ready to get home! and so was i. we arrived home around 6pm. needless to say, we didnt have a hard time going to sleep!

now it monday. yes MONDAY- i hate mondays. i really wanted to stay in the bed and sleep until about lunch time but i have things to do and money to make!and plus after spending a long weekend with lyla i didnt want to leave her this morning. it was so nice to stay with her and be able to be with her all the time.

so anyways, this might be a hard week, as you know sunday is my dads 2 year anniversary of his death. so of course thats all i can think about. thursday night my sister and i went and got some new flowers for his grave and sunday im going over there to put them out. so im praying the day will be easy for me. i guess we shall see...

well i must go. time to work work work.....

oh i have included in this post, some pics from this weekend and of course a pic of my daddy....

-rainy days-

well its tuesday. and its raining out. dark. looks like it would be an amazing day for sleeping! but cant do that bc i need to work. but who cares about the weather!
lyla had her easter pics taken friday and they turned out so so good! before we left the house she fell asleep so i was like this is good bc if she has a nap she will be happy when she wakes up. we were about 20 mins early so i was like even better bc lyla can sleep a little more but no- the two appointments before us were already done! so i had to wake her up. she did ok considering she didnt finish her nap. but she did very well! i cant wait to get them back!
well this weekend i am helping my sister move to georgia. it is sad to see her and landyn go but i understand that this is a great move for her family bc of her new job. i guess this will be an excuse to leave nc for a couple of days during the year! i am nervous about the trip only bc of lyla. its like a 7 hour drive but i know we will be stopping probably alot bc we are going to have 3 cars and a uhaul truck. so i think we might just fine. i will jsut need to take plenty of toys and food and make sure she gets out to stretch!

well next weekend will have been 2 years since daddy has passed. for now, this is of course is all i can think about. all i can think about is that day when i got that phone call. how i felt, what i was doing, and who was there. and then i think about the weeks after that and how many nights i layed awake just wishing it was all i dream. i still do that from time to time now. there are some days when i feel like i am going to wake up at any moment, but the days go by and i see that its not a dream. so now im just dealing. i just miss him so so much. and i could go on and on about him and how much i miss him and what all i wish he had seen, but i know he already knows all that. so why do i keep saying it. i guess just to reassure myself? who knows.

well enough of that already. if i keep on i will get myself into a great depression and i certainly dont need that happening!

well looks like some exciting and some hard times coming up but i know, as my husband would say, "everything will be alright"

(heres a pic i made for my message board sig:)