well it seems as if i may have to start my meds again. before lyla was born i was on antidepressants but i came off them bc i didnt want to be taking that stuff while she was baking. i have now been dealing with all the feelings and hormones that come with having a baby. so now i am wondering, should i wait this out bc it might just be my hormones or could it be that my fathers death anniversary is coming up in about 2 weeks and im just thinking about that time. or is it that i am a full time worker and going to school and dealing with leaving lyla everyday and so on and so on. i can feel my anxiety levels rising from time to time but then agian there are other times when i feel just fine. so its like what to do what to do....
so i think i have come to the conclusion when i go to the ob for my yearly check up in a couple of weeks, i am going to tell her my concerns and see what she thinks. i really didnt want to have to start taking my meds again, only bc i just didnt want to be having to take those pills all the time. but i think i need to talk to her about it.
ok on another note, Lyla is doing amazing. she went and had her shots monday and did amazing. she is jsut so cute. and keeps getting cuter every day. i love looking at her :) it just melts my heart (and then i think to myself how is it that i can feel so loved and delightful when im with lyla and my husband but when its just me time, i am like bllllaaaahhh- but yeah thats irrelevant in ths paragraph-) so anywho friday lyla is going to have her pics taken with the live bunnies!! im SUPER excited!
meanwhile, back at work. my co worker is on maternity leave and i have taken over her job, and needless to say, since shes been gone i have been slammed! but finally today for the first time in a week, things have slowed down! so yay for me for catching a break!
well back to the drawing board.
Lyla Anne Williams
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
mondays and doctors-
its monday. we all know how i just LOVE mondays-
well this monday its rainy and cold and i had to take lyla to the pedi for her 4 month checkup and shots-
she was 15.2 pounds (in the 77%) and 2' 0.5'' long (in the 60%). and her head circumference was 41.4 (in the 52%)
so she is perfect :) - thats literally came out of the doctors mouth :) which i already knew this- so she just confirmed it! lyla did amazing with her shots! at first she got real mad and has bright red face but like 10 seconds after it was over she was smiling again! i was so so proud of her! last time she cried so hard i cried!!!
so anyways, we had a pretty good weekend. went to landyns birthday party. i cant believe he will be 5 already this week! he growing so so fast. i got him a ll bean bookbag with his name on it so when he starts school this year he will be a cool kid :) ha!
well and then sunday we went to church in kinston and had lunch with some friends and their 2 boys were so sweet with lyla! and she of course loved the attention!
well this was short but there is not much going on and i have a ton of work to finish up
later taters.
well this monday its rainy and cold and i had to take lyla to the pedi for her 4 month checkup and shots-
she was 15.2 pounds (in the 77%) and 2' 0.5'' long (in the 60%). and her head circumference was 41.4 (in the 52%)
so she is perfect :) - thats literally came out of the doctors mouth :) which i already knew this- so she just confirmed it! lyla did amazing with her shots! at first she got real mad and has bright red face but like 10 seconds after it was over she was smiling again! i was so so proud of her! last time she cried so hard i cried!!!
so anyways, we had a pretty good weekend. went to landyns birthday party. i cant believe he will be 5 already this week! he growing so so fast. i got him a ll bean bookbag with his name on it so when he starts school this year he will be a cool kid :) ha!
well and then sunday we went to church in kinston and had lunch with some friends and their 2 boys were so sweet with lyla! and she of course loved the attention!
well this was short but there is not much going on and i have a ton of work to finish up
later taters.
Monday, March 21, 2011
mondays-
of course we all know how i love mondays (cant you here the sarcasim?)- well this weekend was an alright weekend. nothing too boring. friday was just another day, however i took lyla to the daffodil field but of course i left my camera at home today so i couldnt post any pictures, but you can best believe i will be doing that tomorrow~!
Saturday, Lyla and I just sat at the house and i cleaned a little bit and caught up on some dvr stuff. then johnny and i went on a date :) it was so nice to get out for a little while. we saw the movie limitless (it was pretty good) and then went out to dinner.
sunday was about like any other sunday. we went to church at lunch, watched the carolina game and then took some furniture to a lady that i sold. other than that, nothing to excting about this weekend.
so now in the upcoming weeks, i guess i will be some what more busy than i am now. landyns (my nephew) birthday party is this weekend and then monday lyla goes to have her 4 month shots. which i am not excited about and im sure if she could voice her opinion, she wouldnt be happy either. bless her little heart. and then friday she is going to have her picture taken with the live bunnies at gregg wards. i am super excited about this day. she has a new dress and everything to wear! so yeah. on top of all that i start a new class wednesday. early amercian history.which i am def not excited about!
well i guess there is not much more to say. other than my sister i think is def taking a job in georgia. which i think is great BUT i will surely miss her and my lb :( but im so happy she has gotten this great oppurtunity. i just hope it all works out great.
well time to go.
Saturday, Lyla and I just sat at the house and i cleaned a little bit and caught up on some dvr stuff. then johnny and i went on a date :) it was so nice to get out for a little while. we saw the movie limitless (it was pretty good) and then went out to dinner.
sunday was about like any other sunday. we went to church at lunch, watched the carolina game and then took some furniture to a lady that i sold. other than that, nothing to excting about this weekend.
so now in the upcoming weeks, i guess i will be some what more busy than i am now. landyns (my nephew) birthday party is this weekend and then monday lyla goes to have her 4 month shots. which i am not excited about and im sure if she could voice her opinion, she wouldnt be happy either. bless her little heart. and then friday she is going to have her picture taken with the live bunnies at gregg wards. i am super excited about this day. she has a new dress and everything to wear! so yeah. on top of all that i start a new class wednesday. early amercian history.which i am def not excited about!
well i guess there is not much more to say. other than my sister i think is def taking a job in georgia. which i think is great BUT i will surely miss her and my lb :( but im so happy she has gotten this great oppurtunity. i just hope it all works out great.
well time to go.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
~shopping and new beginings~
at lunch a co worker and i went to a big consigment event that only comes to town twice a year! lyla got some clothes a pair of shoes and bouncy vibrating chair and a floor mat with toys! im excited about all this! and then my hubby and the MIL went and bought more goodies! so we shall see what they got later
on a real good note, after many many many months of johnny not having a job he got one today!!!!!!!!! and he got the job as soon as he dropped off his resume and his app!!! so congrats to my love!
also last weekend lyla got some new dresses and here is one, this will be here easter attire :) and she will have her pic taken with live bunnies in a couple of months! so excited!
on a real good note, after many many many months of johnny not having a job he got one today!!!!!!!!! and he got the job as soon as he dropped off his resume and his app!!! so congrats to my love!
also last weekend lyla got some new dresses and here is one, this will be here easter attire :) and she will have her pic taken with live bunnies in a couple of months! so excited!
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
anxiety- among many other things
well hello world
anxiety is the topic for today.
i hate it but it comes with life
i am not going to go into detail about the anxiety but if you could send some positive reinforcment my way that would be great. i have been known to have anxiety attacks and since i am now out of zanex, i am having to find alternative methods- which ps are good but not as good as the real good stuff ! -- anyway...
on another notes:
i think lyla is teething. she is slobbering like crazy and putting everything in her mouth. there are times when she is fussy and when i rub her gums she stops. so i bought some teething rings. one i put in the freezer and gave to her but she didnt love the coldness. so we will see how this war goes! also last night she was little miss fussy pants. i dont know what her deal was but i surely didnt sleep much and neither did her father.
next note:
my co worker brought me her baby hawk mei tai- i am excited to use this and see if i like it. for those of you who dont know what im talking about her is a picture: (above)
so now im excited.
well tomorrow is also my last night in this world lit class, thank god. however.... next week i start a world history class.... eeeeewwww i hate history but i have to have it! so lets see how this goes...
well i must go for now.
later world
anxiety is the topic for today.
i hate it but it comes with life
i am not going to go into detail about the anxiety but if you could send some positive reinforcment my way that would be great. i have been known to have anxiety attacks and since i am now out of zanex, i am having to find alternative methods- which ps are good but not as good as the real good stuff ! -- anyway...
on another notes:
i think lyla is teething. she is slobbering like crazy and putting everything in her mouth. there are times when she is fussy and when i rub her gums she stops. so i bought some teething rings. one i put in the freezer and gave to her but she didnt love the coldness. so we will see how this war goes! also last night she was little miss fussy pants. i dont know what her deal was but i surely didnt sleep much and neither did her father.
next note:
so now im excited.
well tomorrow is also my last night in this world lit class, thank god. however.... next week i start a world history class.... eeeeewwww i hate history but i have to have it! so lets see how this goes...
well i must go for now.
later world
Thursday, March 10, 2011
thursday- and a challenging time
i have to say that other than fridays, my favorite day of the week is thursday. i guess only bc the begining of the week is over, my class is finished, and of course my favorite shows come on !! and my best friend comes over most the time :)
so anywho- these past too weeks have been challenging for me. last week while i was at school i smelled my father. as many of you know he passes away almost 2 years ago (april 16, 2009) i have to say it is the hardest thing i have had to deal with in my life. and i wouldnt wish it upon anyone. so anywho, i smelled him in the hallway of the school and after a few moments, the scent was gone. i wanted to smile and cry at the same time. it was sssoooo bittersweet. so i have to keep in mind that he only did that to let me know he hadnt gone anywhere and that he was still with me. so i now know that the glass angel in my car truley is my dad, my guardian. however with all that being said- life is challenging now he is gone. dont get me wrong, i have johnny and i have lyla and i have the rest of my family BUT its not the same when your dad cant be around to enjoy this life with you.
so to all my friend who even read this, please just keep me in your prayers. as the time comes closer to his anniversary it becomes more challenging for me to keep my head up. as most of you know depression has been an issue for me in the past and when lyla came along i stopped my meds. i stopped my meds bc i know that johnny is my support and my rock and i dont need those meds if i have him. it truely is amazing to have your best friend as your husband. BUT even without the meds i struggle on a daily basis. BUT i am trying to make lite of the situation. all i am doing to say is, this is hard and i love my dad with everything fiber of my being. enough said.
ok so on more notes: lyla is about over her sickness! thank god. she was 4 months old yesterday! its hard to believe its been 4 months since she was born! time is really flying by. to all other mothers out there- i now see what you say about growing up too fast.
well i better get to work. my co worker will be having her baby any time now and i need to get this work down pat!!!
later taters
so anywho- these past too weeks have been challenging for me. last week while i was at school i smelled my father. as many of you know he passes away almost 2 years ago (april 16, 2009) i have to say it is the hardest thing i have had to deal with in my life. and i wouldnt wish it upon anyone. so anywho, i smelled him in the hallway of the school and after a few moments, the scent was gone. i wanted to smile and cry at the same time. it was sssoooo bittersweet. so i have to keep in mind that he only did that to let me know he hadnt gone anywhere and that he was still with me. so i now know that the glass angel in my car truley is my dad, my guardian. however with all that being said- life is challenging now he is gone. dont get me wrong, i have johnny and i have lyla and i have the rest of my family BUT its not the same when your dad cant be around to enjoy this life with you.
so to all my friend who even read this, please just keep me in your prayers. as the time comes closer to his anniversary it becomes more challenging for me to keep my head up. as most of you know depression has been an issue for me in the past and when lyla came along i stopped my meds. i stopped my meds bc i know that johnny is my support and my rock and i dont need those meds if i have him. it truely is amazing to have your best friend as your husband. BUT even without the meds i struggle on a daily basis. BUT i am trying to make lite of the situation. all i am doing to say is, this is hard and i love my dad with everything fiber of my being. enough said.
ok so on more notes: lyla is about over her sickness! thank god. she was 4 months old yesterday! its hard to believe its been 4 months since she was born! time is really flying by. to all other mothers out there- i now see what you say about growing up too fast.
well i better get to work. my co worker will be having her baby any time now and i need to get this work down pat!!!
later taters
Monday, March 7, 2011
banking days-
so today is monday. everyone knows i am not a huge fan of mondays....
i wake up this morning thinking ok, lets try to have a good monday for a change. well that didnt happen. i woke up in a bad mood, again for about the fourth time in this past week.
i get to work and start checking my email and the bank account so that i can balance the check book. to my surprise there are charges from maryland on our account. i immediatley call johnny and ask him what these charges are, and he doesnt know. so i begin to call the bank, and what do you know i get voicemails! so i keep calling different branches until someone answers the phone! so i then go to the bank with johnny in tow, and we see that someone within 45 minuntes has charged right at $160 to our account on saturday from maryland. they went to the 7-11, the news stand, and the liquor store.... im sure they would have purchased more but they ran out of money, THANK GOD- this is the one time i am glad there was a small amount of money in our account. so i finally got that fixed! oh and on another note how about the people who were doing this didnt have checks, they actually had made a duplicate of my card! i hope that god puts a great conviction on whoever did this!
ok so on another note, baby lyla is doing better ! finally. we are still giving her antibiotic twice a day along with a breathing treatment every 4 hours. so hopefully soon she will be done with this cold mess.
ok. well i better go.
hope everyone has a great week.
sorry this one was a little short but i more than anything just wanted to vent about the whole bank thing!
i wake up this morning thinking ok, lets try to have a good monday for a change. well that didnt happen. i woke up in a bad mood, again for about the fourth time in this past week.
i get to work and start checking my email and the bank account so that i can balance the check book. to my surprise there are charges from maryland on our account. i immediatley call johnny and ask him what these charges are, and he doesnt know. so i begin to call the bank, and what do you know i get voicemails! so i keep calling different branches until someone answers the phone! so i then go to the bank with johnny in tow, and we see that someone within 45 minuntes has charged right at $160 to our account on saturday from maryland. they went to the 7-11, the news stand, and the liquor store.... im sure they would have purchased more but they ran out of money, THANK GOD- this is the one time i am glad there was a small amount of money in our account. so i finally got that fixed! oh and on another note how about the people who were doing this didnt have checks, they actually had made a duplicate of my card! i hope that god puts a great conviction on whoever did this!
ok so on another note, baby lyla is doing better ! finally. we are still giving her antibiotic twice a day along with a breathing treatment every 4 hours. so hopefully soon she will be done with this cold mess.
ok. well i better go.
hope everyone has a great week.
sorry this one was a little short but i more than anything just wanted to vent about the whole bank thing!
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