well it seems as if i may have to start my meds again. before lyla was born i was on antidepressants but i came off them bc i didnt want to be taking that stuff while she was baking. i have now been dealing with all the feelings and hormones that come with having a baby. so now i am wondering, should i wait this out bc it might just be my hormones or could it be that my fathers death anniversary is coming up in about 2 weeks and im just thinking about that time. or is it that i am a full time worker and going to school and dealing with leaving lyla everyday and so on and so on. i can feel my anxiety levels rising from time to time but then agian there are other times when i feel just fine. so its like what to do what to do....
so i think i have come to the conclusion when i go to the ob for my yearly check up in a couple of weeks, i am going to tell her my concerns and see what she thinks. i really didnt want to have to start taking my meds again, only bc i just didnt want to be having to take those pills all the time. but i think i need to talk to her about it.
ok on another note, Lyla is doing amazing. she went and had her shots monday and did amazing. she is jsut so cute. and keeps getting cuter every day. i love looking at her :) it just melts my heart (and then i think to myself how is it that i can feel so loved and delightful when im with lyla and my husband but when its just me time, i am like bllllaaaahhh- but yeah thats irrelevant in ths paragraph-) so anywho friday lyla is going to have her pics taken with the live bunnies!! im SUPER excited!
meanwhile, back at work. my co worker is on maternity leave and i have taken over her job, and needless to say, since shes been gone i have been slammed! but finally today for the first time in a week, things have slowed down! so yay for me for catching a break!
well back to the drawing board.
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