thursday- and a challenging time

i have to say that other than fridays, my favorite day of the week is thursday. i guess only bc the begining of the week is over, my class is finished, and of course my favorite shows come on !! and my best friend comes over most the time :)
so anywho- these past too weeks have been challenging for me. last week while i was at school i smelled my father. as many of you know he passes away almost 2 years ago (april 16, 2009) i have to say it is the hardest thing i have had to deal with in my life. and i wouldnt wish it upon anyone. so anywho, i smelled him in the hallway of the school and after a few moments, the scent was gone. i wanted to smile and cry at the same time. it was sssoooo bittersweet. so i have to keep in mind that he only did that to let me know he hadnt gone anywhere and that he was still with me. so i now know that the glass angel in my car truley is my dad, my guardian. however with all that being said- life is challenging now he is gone. dont get me wrong, i have johnny and i have lyla and i have the rest of my family BUT its not the same when your dad cant be around to enjoy this life with you.
so to all my friend who even read this, please just keep me in your prayers. as the time comes closer to his anniversary it becomes more challenging for me to keep my head up. as most of you know depression has been an issue for me in the past and when lyla came along i stopped my meds. i stopped my meds bc i know that johnny is my support and my rock and i dont need those meds if i have him. it truely is amazing to have your best friend as your husband. BUT even without the meds i struggle on a daily basis. BUT i am trying to make lite of the situation. all i am doing to say is, this is hard and i love my dad with everything fiber of my being. enough said.

ok so on more notes: lyla is about over her sickness! thank god. she was 4 months old yesterday! its hard to believe its been 4 months since she was born! time is really flying by. to all other mothers out there- i now see what you say about growing up too fast.

well i better get to work. my co worker will be having her baby any time now and i need to get this work down pat!!!

later taters