-rainy days-

well its tuesday. and its raining out. dark. looks like it would be an amazing day for sleeping! but cant do that bc i need to work. but who cares about the weather!
lyla had her easter pics taken friday and they turned out so so good! before we left the house she fell asleep so i was like this is good bc if she has a nap she will be happy when she wakes up. we were about 20 mins early so i was like even better bc lyla can sleep a little more but no- the two appointments before us were already done! so i had to wake her up. she did ok considering she didnt finish her nap. but she did very well! i cant wait to get them back!
well this weekend i am helping my sister move to georgia. it is sad to see her and landyn go but i understand that this is a great move for her family bc of her new job. i guess this will be an excuse to leave nc for a couple of days during the year! i am nervous about the trip only bc of lyla. its like a 7 hour drive but i know we will be stopping probably alot bc we are going to have 3 cars and a uhaul truck. so i think we might just fine. i will jsut need to take plenty of toys and food and make sure she gets out to stretch!

well next weekend will have been 2 years since daddy has passed. for now, this is of course is all i can think about. all i can think about is that day when i got that phone call. how i felt, what i was doing, and who was there. and then i think about the weeks after that and how many nights i layed awake just wishing it was all i dream. i still do that from time to time now. there are some days when i feel like i am going to wake up at any moment, but the days go by and i see that its not a dream. so now im just dealing. i just miss him so so much. and i could go on and on about him and how much i miss him and what all i wish he had seen, but i know he already knows all that. so why do i keep saying it. i guess just to reassure myself? who knows.

well enough of that already. if i keep on i will get myself into a great depression and i certainly dont need that happening!

well looks like some exciting and some hard times coming up but i know, as my husband would say, "everything will be alright"

(heres a pic i made for my message board sig:)