~fathers day~

well lets see its been a while since i've been up here.
well lyla is eating baby food twice a day now. she loves it. so far. she is also saying da da, la la, ba ba, and pa pa, and wa wa but still no MA MA. i am trying real hard to help her learn it. she is also sitting up so good by herself. still no crawling, but i think she might br trying to skip that stage. she will also now stand by herself if she has some props. she will be 7 months old tomorrow. omg time is flying by too fast. it is about time to start planning her 1 year birthday !

other than that, fathers day is this weekend. who excited? me, yes and no. i love the fact that this is johnnys first fathers day. and it will be amazing with lyla but i cant help but to think about my dad. this will make the 2nd fathers day without him. i thought the first year was hard but this one, i dont know. it seems harder. i guess its bc hes no here to witness the happenings of lylas life. and yes while i know he sees everything from heaven as he sits on a cloud, its not the same bc i cant call him everyday and say guess what lyla did today. so i guess it just seems harder bc lyla is here now. either way, it always going to be hard.
and then of course i feel guilty bc this is johnnys first fathers day and i feel like if i say something about my dad i will taking attention away from him. he of course says that it is only right that i think about my dad. and yes i do understand what he says, its still difficult.
so its kind of like what do you do.

anyway.